I write because…

I write because…

Actually I don’t write enough – I get caught up in the detail, in the ‘I need to think about that a bit more before I commit to paper or screen‘, and of course I rarely get to that point.

However, I write because there’s a lot inside me that needs a way out, and writing usually is a way for me to make some sense of it all.

Some of thoughts, feelings and ideas are big – so big that I can’t see ‘the woods for the trees’ and it’s hard to get perspective. Writing allows pieces to come out which helps me put things together in a way that I can understand better.

I also write because it’s good to read it back one day. Reading back through some old notebooks a few years ago helped me realise that I had had a very negative view on many issues (including myself). It actually scared me to read some of it back because I didn’t think that was how I was actually feeling at the time, but clearly I was!

But it’s not all bad. Reading old journals brings back feelings, emotions, thoughts, ideas, plans and much more that makes my life seem much richer and connected. I can see what ideas and thoughts have persisted and maybe make an effort to concentrate on some things more than others.

I write because it won’t solve all my problems, but it will help me become aware of them.

#everydayinspiration


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Tackling anxiety with herbs

Tackling anxiety with herbs

A couple of years ago, I started to realise that anxiety and depression were getting the better of me. Despite all the ‘living in the moment’ and mindfulness I espouse, sometimes, you get in a deep rut and you need additional help to get out of.

My anxiety was actually starting to have physical effects on me, as well as that, my mood swings sometimes made me not the nicest of people to be around, which affects my loved ones (more than appreciated).

I didn’t want to take prescription drugs, so I sought the advice of a friend who is a herbwife. She asked me to visit my doctor and get blood tests and a check up to make sure that there was nothing physical.

At the check-up, my doctor was very good, and wondered why I didn’t want to take pharmaceutical anti-depressants, but ultimately accepted that I didn’t (he mentioned the option of counselling…). All blood tests were fine so onwards with the herbal approach…

I was given some herbal preparations and some ‘exercises’. The exercises, which I’ll explore later on, are geared towards getting my mind into a more positive place – one of my ‘problems’ is that I have taken a very negative view on some things, and have struggled to see positives. Elements of this blog reflect that – it’s so hard to find the balance between wanting to be informed and not wanting to be overwhelmed or feel helpless with the bad stuff.

Anyway, I’ll write more on a future blog post, for the moment, here’s what I’m working with, herbally speaking.

Medicines

The herbal preparations are broken down into ‘daily supplements’ and ’emergency’ treatments.

Daily / Herbal Tonic: tincture comprised of 2 parts Vervain (adrenal support), 2 parts Nettle (blood cleanser, adrenal support), 1 part SJW (nervine), 1 part Evening Primrose (for stress with digestive issues), 1 part Motherwort (nervine). Dose 1 tsp 3 times a day.

Daily / Nettle Seed: 1 – 2 tsp each day (on porridge?) for adrenal support.

Emergency treatment 1 – Scullcap: 1 dropperful under the tongue for the ‘screaming habdab’ moments. Bottle to be carried with me at all times. Not to be used more than 3 times a day.

Emergency treatment 2 –“I don’t give a shit” tea: 1 tsp or 1 pinch each of vervain, chamomile and lemon balm. Infuse in just boiled water for 10 minutes, strain and drink. Not more than twice a day. Recommended to be taken after work.

I also get stressed because I over commit and then struggle to get everything done (can’t see the woods for the trees…). Part of this is that I want to please everyone so have difficulty in saying ‘no’.  To help with that, my herbwife asked me to search out some Yarrow (which I have in my garden) and take a piece around with me to help boundary issues (where you stop and other people/things start).

In addition to the herbal medicines, I’ve also been given some things to think about and some journalling tasks – more on that soon…

One of the important things to remember is the importance of tackling the underlying causes. Medicines will give symptomatic relief, and in some cases, being free from the symptoms enables you to move to a ‘better place’.

Please note that I am not suggesting or recommending treatments. Anxiety and depression are complex issues and there is no ‘one size fits all’ solution. Always seek appropriate advice!

Muffled rain on a shed roof

Muffled rain on a shed roof

It’s quarter past midnight in the middle of June and almost Alban Hefin (midsummer / Litha).

The rain is coming down heavily this evening.

For some reason, I’m drawn to walk up the garden to my shed.

My shed is a very special place for me. I insulated it, boarded it, painted it, re-roofed it, repaired it and generally put a lot of myself in it. It’s become an almost spiritual place for me – quiet and peaceful – a retreat if you will, where I can shut out the world, the noise, the phones, internet and all that stuff.

Anyway, as I walk up the garden, I catch a glimpse of something moving near my feet. I stop, somewhat startled! It’s a lovely frog – enjoying the fresh rain.

I continue up the path to my shed. Inside there’s the beautiful sound of muffled rain on the felt roof. Not harsh, like on a caravan or tin roof, but a soft, soothing sound that makes you aware of the rain but not overpowered by it.

It’s a mellow, protective, feminine, almost meditative sound that entrances me and makes me feel connected again to the natural world. Suitably refreshed, I walk the few paces back to the house, saying ‘hello’ as I pass the frog!

Dandelion, how I love thee!

Dandelion, how I love thee!

Dandelions are great plants and great healers. With their long tap roots, they pull up minerals from deep in the soil and make them available in their roots, leaves and flowers.

This video highlights some of the health benefits to using and consuming the dandelion – if you are blessed to have some in your garden, don’t pull them up and discard them and certainly don’t use herbicides. Encourage them and use them to heal yourself.

 

Dandelion flower image By Greg Hume – Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=17890515

In praise of nettles

In praise of nettles

As it’s the Spring Equinox, it seemed appropriate to write about plants and growing. I have dabbled in herbalism for the past few years and have made a few tinctures and dried plants to use in teas. It’s one of those things that I’m going to get around to doing properly ‘one of these days‘, but of course, unless I push myself, ‘one of these days‘ will never arrive!

So, I’ve made a commitment to myself that this spring and summer, I will get ‘out there’ and explore at least three plants as thoroughly as I can. My current three are Nettle, Plantain and Elder.

Nettle is a brilliant plant. I’m already taking nettle seed (along with other things) for anxiety, but the whole plant has many uses. The leaves (the top 2 or 3 sets in spring and early summer), are highly nutritious as a food, and as a medicine. The seeds, as already mentioned, have some great qualities too, and the root can also be used as a medicine. The great thing about nettle is it’s abundance – certainly in the UK, you can find it fairly easily.

This YouTube video gives you an introduction to some of the benefits of the humble Nettle, along with useful information on when and how to harvest it.

 

Beyond food and medicine, there is also the possibility of using nettle as a fibre too. I went to a talk a month ago, where the speaker showed us some nettle thread which had been spun. Nettle cord is another use and is quite easy to make and incredibly strong.

According to the website, nettlesforhealth.com the Stinging Nettle (Urtica dioica) contain the following:

Vitamin A, C, E, F, K, P
Vitamin B- complexes as well as thiamin, riboflavin, niacin, B-6 all of which are found in high levels and act as antioxidents.
​Zinc, Iron, Magnesium, Copper and Selenium
Boron, Bromine, Calcium, Chlorine, Chlorophyll, Potassium, Phosphorus, Sodium, Iodine, Chromium, Silicon and Sulfur

Sixteen free amino acids have been found in the leaves as well as many carotenoids such as beta-carotene, luteoxanthin and lutein epoxide.

Stinging nettle is indeed a powerhouse of nutrients. Along with the nutrients mentioned above, it contains on average:

22% protein 4% fats 37% non-nitrogen extracts
9-21% fiber 19-29% ash.

The actual content will of course vary according to the soil quality and particular strain of the plant, but you get the idea that it’s just packed full of good stuff. I would encourage you discover the benefits of seeing nettle as an ally and use it!

Cat Scramble by Elen Sentier

Cat Scramble by Elen Sentier

Every so often I hear some great, inspiring poetry or writing. I posted Tom Hiron’s poem, “Sometimes a Wild God” which still inspires me, especially the performance of it by storyteller Mark Lewis which is at the bottom of the page on this link:

https://hawthornrising.wordpress.com/2015/10/01/sometimes-a-wild-god/

But last week, I caught this, ‘Cat Scramble’ by Elen Sentier. Like she says in the story, “this place speaks to me”, and this writing does to. It speaks of wild places that are good for the soul, of taking and giving back, of the cycles of life. Continue reading “Cat Scramble by Elen Sentier”