I’m feeling very ‘lost’ at the moment. It’s hard to be precise about the feeling, but those from the UK might have heard the word ‘discombobulated’ and I think that’s a good fit for me!
It doesn’t help that I’ve had a cold for 5 weeks (my first one in over 4 years) and whilst it’s on its way out, I still get bouts of coughing and headaches or earaches which pull me down.
But there is something deeper – a deeper pull for real and meaningful connection with the Earth, with the Source. I can’t get motivated by work, in fact, jobs that should be taking a few hours are taking days – suddenly work doesn’t seem important.
A number of the books I’ve read recently, or am reading right now have touched on this and made me realise that I am missing something.
Maybe this phase will pass.
Maybe this is a wakeup call.
Yesterday has happened. You can’t change what happened, or what you did yesterday.
Tomorrow hasn’t happened yet. Who knows what will happen before then or what might happen – you don’t know, so don’t fret.
Now, right now, is the only time that matters. Once the moment has gone, it’s gone. Do what matters to you, and do it now. Now is the only thing you have control over.
I’ve been attending ‘mindfulness’ classes for some time. At first, it all seemed like simplistic stuff, but one of the things with any learning is that old (bad) habits die hard. The secret to change is repetition and a good support group around you.
I’m not suggesting Mindfulness will solve all your problems because it won’t, but it will give you a better view on things and a better attitude to life. I know I have a long way to go, but I have started. Have you?
Live in the moment, but respect all life, respect mother Earth.