I write because…

I write because…

Actually I don’t write enough – I get caught up in the detail, in the ‘I need to think about that a bit more before I commit to paper or screen‘, and of course I rarely get to that point.

However, I write because there’s a lot inside me that needs a way out, and writing usually is a way for me to make some sense of it all.

Some of thoughts, feelings and ideas are big – so big that I can’t see ‘the woods for the trees’ and it’s hard to get perspective. Writing allows pieces to come out which helps me put things together in a way that I can understand better.

I also write because it’s good to read it back one day. Reading back through some old notebooks a few years ago helped me realise that I had had a very negative view on many issues (including myself). It actually scared me to read some of it back because I didn’t think that was how I was actually feeling at the time, but clearly I was!

But it’s not all bad. Reading old journals brings back feelings, emotions, thoughts, ideas, plans and much more that makes my life seem much richer and connected. I can see what ideas and thoughts have persisted and maybe make an effort to concentrate on some things more than others.

I write because it won’t solve all my problems, but it will help me become aware of them.

#everydayinspiration


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Tackling anxiety with herbs

Tackling anxiety with herbs

A couple of years ago, I started to realise that anxiety and depression were getting the better of me. Despite all the ‘living in the moment’ and mindfulness I espouse, sometimes, you get in a deep rut and you need additional help to get out of.

My anxiety was actually starting to have physical effects on me, as well as that, my mood swings sometimes made me not the nicest of people to be around, which affects my loved ones (more than appreciated).

I didn’t want to take prescription drugs, so I sought the advice of a friend who is a herbwife. She asked me to visit my doctor and get blood tests and a check up to make sure that there was nothing physical.

At the check-up, my doctor was very good, and wondered why I didn’t want to take pharmaceutical anti-depressants, but ultimately accepted that I didn’t (he mentioned the option of counselling…). All blood tests were fine so onwards with the herbal approach…

I was given some herbal preparations and some ‘exercises’. The exercises, which I’ll explore later on, are geared towards getting my mind into a more positive place – one of my ‘problems’ is that I have taken a very negative view on some things, and have struggled to see positives. Elements of this blog reflect that – it’s so hard to find the balance between wanting to be informed and not wanting to be overwhelmed or feel helpless with the bad stuff.

Anyway, I’ll write more on a future blog post, for the moment, here’s what I’m working with, herbally speaking.

Medicines

The herbal preparations are broken down into ‘daily supplements’ and ’emergency’ treatments.

Daily / Herbal Tonic: tincture comprised of 2 parts Vervain (adrenal support), 2 parts Nettle (blood cleanser, adrenal support), 1 part SJW (nervine), 1 part Evening Primrose (for stress with digestive issues), 1 part Motherwort (nervine). Dose 1 tsp 3 times a day.

Daily / Nettle Seed: 1 – 2 tsp each day (on porridge?) for adrenal support.

Emergency treatment 1 – Scullcap: 1 dropperful under the tongue for the ‘screaming habdab’ moments. Bottle to be carried with me at all times. Not to be used more than 3 times a day.

Emergency treatment 2 –“I don’t give a shit” tea: 1 tsp or 1 pinch each of vervain, chamomile and lemon balm. Infuse in just boiled water for 10 minutes, strain and drink. Not more than twice a day. Recommended to be taken after work.

I also get stressed because I over commit and then struggle to get everything done (can’t see the woods for the trees…). Part of this is that I want to please everyone so have difficulty in saying ‘no’.  To help with that, my herbwife asked me to search out some Yarrow (which I have in my garden) and take a piece around with me to help boundary issues (where you stop and other people/things start).

In addition to the herbal medicines, I’ve also been given some things to think about and some journalling tasks – more on that soon…

One of the important things to remember is the importance of tackling the underlying causes. Medicines will give symptomatic relief, and in some cases, being free from the symptoms enables you to move to a ‘better place’.

Please note that I am not suggesting or recommending treatments. Anxiety and depression are complex issues and there is no ‘one size fits all’ solution. Always seek appropriate advice!